Updated: May 8, 2020
"Today is a success or failure is based on the actions you take, not the success of those actions"
I wrote that note on my phone a few weeks ago when I was frustrated with the result of my top set of back squats.
The objective at this point in time is to push my high rep weights (the ability to grind through quite heavy sets of 8-12 reps) for some pretty exciting goals later this year.
The task of the day was a 12 rep max to see where I was at, I managed 160kg and nearly died in the process (12 reps is very much considered cardio for a strength athlete). I checked on my table that gives me a predicted 1 rep max based on my 12 rep max (not 100% accurate but its a gauge) and I was NOWHERE NEAR my goal weight.
I had legs that felt like they were twice their weight, my heart rate wouldn't drop that made my head feel like it was going to explode, and I was further away from my goals than I had realised. I was gutted.
But then, as I lay on my back, slightly euphoric, I realised that if I want to achieve anything better than this shit show of a performance needed to feel like this a lot more often. Utter disappointment in my failure of an achievement made me remember that my goals are huge, and aren't going to be a breeze. Who was I to think so egocentrically that I could just waltz through the first step in the progress of my goals with a 9 out of 10 effort?
The actions I took were a step towards my success, they may have been a failure, but they were still actions.
Learn from this, what have you considered a failure recently that I could look at as a success?